We all have those memories of moments in life where we wish we could have a mulligan and so be able to go back and relive or re-do what we painfully remember having so gloriously botched. But, of course life is lived in the forward gear and there is no going back.

In light of this I found this quote from my reading yesterday to be of great comfort remembering times when my faith has been so weak;

“My father, dying just short of his 91st birthday after 75 years as a believer, deeply bemoaned the weakness of his faith at a crucial point of his life. I assured him that this was of no account, for our salvation resides in Christ, not in the strength of our faith. As he lapsed into unconsciousness, to die the next day, he repeatedly affirmed, “Our salvation is in Christ.” His last words were to repeat the Book of Common Prayer’s powerful expression “in sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life.”

Robert Letham
Systematic Theology – p. 677

When we are convicted about our past failures of exercising our faith even then we must not lose hope since our hope lies in Christ’s faithfulness and not our own.

Thanks be to God for the imputation of Christ’s righteousness that covers my sin and for His infinite patience with us. If I had to live with my past without knowing that Christ is my righteousness and acceptability before the Father I could not function.

I hope when I am on my deathbed, I am reciting the same words that Letham witnessed his father reciting.